Dominic is one today. I can hardly believe that a year ago I was holding a newborn infant in my arms and today he was crawling around, putting everything in sight in his mouth. He enjoyed a bit of cake as well, though I think more ended up on him rather than in him. But we enjoyed ourselves.

The new school year has started and I'm pleased to say I've lasted more than a week. It's a new record. I'm enjoying myself and the kids seem to. So that's what counts, right?

Remus

I buried my husband a year ago.

I found out I was pregnant with Dominic a year ago.

Does this make it a joyous one or something else?

Remus' birthday is in ten days and I still don't know what to get him. Somehow I doubt a chocolate bar from Honeydukes is going to cut it. He took me out to The Blue Owl for Valentine's Day. I need to do something just as nice for him.

Cho's birthday is in fifteen days. I don't know what to get her, but I'm not as worried about it.

Both need cakes, which means I need to go to the bakery in town and order them. I should take of that soon.

Remus is due in an hour.

We're going out tonight for Valentine's Day apparently. He and Cho set this up to surprise me. I couldn't even pick out my own clothes, instead, Cho shoved a garment bag into my hands and told me to enjoy.

This does not bode well.

Sent owl to psychiatrist off the list Ellie gave me.

This is getting ridiculous. Nightmares keep me from functioning. Flying helps. So does potion. I prefer the broom.

I want to go back to the school, eventually. It won't happen if I'm jumping at every single noise.

Back home.

Can't sleep.

Keep seeing them. Hearing them. Feeling them.

Cho has been lovely, if a bit smothering. She said Remus came by to see me, but I was sleeping off the potions.

Hope he comes tomorrow.

Absolutely horrid out today, so I'm glad Cho was home this morning so I could do a bit of shopping without exposing Dominic to the elements.

At a complete loss as to what to give Remus. Everything I think of is either too familiar or not familiar enough. We're attending a Christmas party tomorrow at one of his friend's houses. Perhaps I'll pick their brains.

Also, speaking of Weasleys, I have to get something for Ginny Weasley. But what does one get to say "hey, thanks for delivering my child"?

Dominic is well shopped for, thank Merlin. I'm pretty sure he will turn out a very spoiled little boy.

The full moon happened over this weekend. I thought about going over to see how Remus was, but I didn't know if he wanted to see me or not. I'll owl him, let him make the decision.

Merlin, I hope he's okay.

Dominic's eight weeks old today. How could two months go by so fast?

I'm assuming maternity leave will be ending soon. I should contact my healer and the headmistress about possibly going back to work. I'll have to figure out what to do about childcare though.

They got me presents

The faculty and staff sent me a gift basket, which was very useful. I know I should go and get some supplies, but I can't bear to put Dominic down and I doubt either the floo or apparating is in my future.

He slept in my arms last night, against the advice of my books, but he started wailing every time I put him down. My heart would just break. This is a bad habit to get into, but he's just over a day old.

Draco Malfoy also sent me a onesie. It's cute. It's blue and has a peanut in it. The thing's a little large, but Dominic should grow into it.

Why haven't I heard from Remus

Ginny cautioned me to take it slow, but I'm feeling antsy and tired all at the same time. Oh well. Dominic's hungry again. I'll feed him and then try and take a nap while he sleeps.